Saturday, January 1, 2011


These were all taken just yesterday at a wedding I was in. As I look at these I realize how much healthier I FEEL and look. Still not quite to my goal but such a long way away from where I was months ago and a year ago when I was skeletal.

I am under a lot of current stress due to my ex and court crap but regardless I am really trying hard not to use starvation as a means of coping. I am trying to look to the positive of what I do have and what I do have control over which is being there for my boys and being good to me. "Ana" would just be one more stress I don't need and who wants to look gross and too skinny? Not me!



  1. Positive thoughts are def good :) and trying is all we can really ask for =)


  2. First off, happy new year.
    You look absolutely radiant. I am so happy for you in regards to how far you have've tried so hard and I hope you can keep pushing forward.

    Keep fighting for your boys and show your ex what you're made of.


  3. I just wanted to let you know that I am always reading your blog and hoping one day to be as brave as you and try to starve my eating disorder. Ana is really harder than most people realize, and I believe you have helped letting people know.
    You are an inspiration; thank you! :)

  4. Wow, you look so much better! You are an inspiration, really!

    I actually wanted to ask you something of a favour with regards to promoting recovery, but I don't want to look like I'm spamming your blog... would you consider contacting me at ? My name there is bella...Don't worry - it's not pro ana :)

    I would be very grateful if you would hear me out Thank you again, for such an inspiring blog :)

  5. I love the way you embrace your "ana" free body. A body of energy,health and beauty...