My therapist made such a good point today when she pointed out that I take such good care of my kids and do so much for them yet I hurt myself with weight loss and retreating within. She also pretty much laid down the law today so my ass is kicking into gear. I am grateful for her and that I trust her so much and have really connected with her over the years. I find myself really looking forward to sessions. For those of you struggling and thinking you can do this on your own, I encourge you to seek help and connect with someone. Therapy is such a healthy avenue for anyone.
I am struggling with this and doing what I need to work my way up out of this as I feel I have hit rock bottom. They all say the only way left to go is up. I have quite a bit to gain weight wise which we all know is not easy but in the long run will "gain" so much more and grow from this so that someday I can really reach out and help others which is a passion of mine.
The boys and I have a full weekend ahead with a fun birthday party Friday, barbecue pool party Saturday, and new church Sunday. I am a bit insecure about my weight but will still wear a bathing suit Saturday and the sun dresses and skirts I desire. I will not go back to baggy clothes and covering up.
The pain is deep and ongoing but I am learning to reach out more and learning to just be me~