After receiving a harsh comment from someone I feel very close to on my entry right before this one I feel need to clarify a few things.
ANOREXIA NERVOSA IS HELL!!!!!!!
Anyone who has ever truly battled this DISEASE would know this. And the longer the battle, the longer the recovery PROCESS!
Truthfully I feel I am on this pedestal because for a while I was "plowing" through recovery despite my world around me completely crashing down on me. Everyone has a breaking point and I, too, am human. I don't discount all the good. I appreciate so much having my kids, Mike, my family, friends, and support. I am extremely humble and don't take anything for granted.
I am merely struggling at this moment in time and expressing what it is to go through this while still VERY MUCH wanting FULL RECOVERY!
I am not abandoning RECOVERY. I am struggling with seeing "pseudo" fat and feeling sick about myself with where I am at in life with no job while being a single mom. It is what it is at the moment and I WILL get through it somehow, some way. I WILL beat this. I am merely struggling at the moment...