These were taken yesterday. Top ones right before church. After church Mike took us all to Big Bear for some cold fun! It started to snow while we were there, which was so neat.
I was pretty busy all weekend with the boys visiting friends and spending time with Mike and his daughter Juliana. I ate pretty well and while I still had internal insecurities I didn't let "ana" ruin such a wonderful weekend.
I have noticed weight gain though don't know a number but that doesn't matter. I am working on being heathy. I don't need "ana" to infiltrate every part of my life as it's so draining. It's hard to gain when you see fat but as I gain and push through recovery, the less I will focus on weight and will deal more with why I tend to starve in stress etc.
I encourage you all to choose recovery despite all the excuses, insecurities, and fears.
Today I choose recovery to Celebrate Eating Disorder Awareness Week! I hope you all do the same and those who suspect loved ones of having an eating disorder will reach out to them and offer help and support.
((hugs))
Brandee
I am here for you- and I am so proud of you for choosing recovery. I AM HERE TO HELP IF YOU NEED SOME. Good luck- though I don't think you'll need it- you're too good for luck
ReplyDeleteWonderful post and beautiful pics, Brande.
ReplyDeleteCongrats on how far you've come.
It is indeed tiring dealing with this problem. You seem to be doing wonderfully. You have guts to keep on keeping on, and thank you being so open about yourself.
ReplyDeleteEd
Good for you for pushing through and choosing recovery. You're right--ED is so tiring. Honestly the first thing that comes to mind when I hear the word anorexia is just the sheer exhaustion of it.
ReplyDeleteYou look so happy in those pictures and you have such a wonderful life to live for!
Brandee,
ReplyDeleteIm so proud of you! You are doing such an awesome job. I cant wait till i get to the point where i start to see some weight gain. I am a bit scared that i will find out when I start to gain weight that my fear of weight gain will surface. Since ive never been a healthy weight, i dont know how I will react. But i know that I admire your strength and courage, thank you so much for sharing your journey to recovery. You are not alone.