These are of my twin brother and I in preschool! As you can see in 3rd photo my mouth is open. I had a big mouth then and do now thank you very much!
There is no perfect recovery because if there were it would be ANA not recovery. And what would be left to work on? I have debated even blogging this for fear of some being disappointed because I am not sure how high a pedastal others have me on now. But regardless I know I am in recovery with both feet but have moments of falling like I did the past few days.
I have been real depressd about my father's passing, more anger than anything, and about finances. I don't want for much. I rarely go anywhere to save on gas and the kids have plenty. But without a job still and unemployment pays way low I am going in the negative in January. I am selling on ebay and trying to find babysitting or housecleaning for side jobs to be in the positive for bills. Thanks to Barb I was able to see Dr. Waraich this week and next. I am so grateful. I then have to brace myself for not seeing her all of January and part February until tax return IF IF IF I don't find side jobs or a real job soon. This kills me and only fuels the depression. It's like the drug addict needing more of the drug to feel good. Dr. Waraich is like a healthy drug. Normal recovery takes years and I am barely starting and it's been uphill all the way. I want recovery more than anything and can't do it alone. The past few days I have no had an appetite and restricted some and even took laxatives yesterday. I gave them up today and only took a few yesterday.
I am back on track but barely. Could use many prayers for a job~