The top two are from eons ago! I graduated in 1994 and was on the varsity dance team. Highly bulimic but looked healthier those days! I said looked! The bottom one was taken on my way down to 92 pounds which I reached a month later but never saw the thin then either. So much for Ana and her promises!I have been thinking a lot about recovery and what it takes. It takes a village to raise a child and a village to Recover an Anorexic or other eating disorders. I say anorexic for my own purpose here. I am in such a bind and want recovery so bad so now I am going to start going to a new church and surround myself with positive, uplifting people. I believe God will provide a job soon and make sure somehow I get those appointments for January and early February. The lack of stability and not knowing kills me and fuels the depression but I have to have hope or I have nothing but Ana and I sure don't want to be friends with her anymore. I also need to find a support group to hold me accountable. I have all of you here which helps so much and I devulge everything to Barb (Medusa) which also keeps me accountable and helps (Thanks Medusa). Not to mention when I even think of starving or start to I leave a message for Dr. Waraich~
In other words ladies and gents create your village and hold yourself accountable because you are so worth it~
((hugs))
Brandee
(((Brande)))
ReplyDeleteHi Brande,
ReplyDeleteI just surfed in through Medusa's blog. Thanks for sharing those pics and updates on your recovery (I was also highly bulimic in high school). I also started a blog, (a Christian recovery resource) as I've been fully recovered for 6 years now and have written a book about the process and why it's necessary to renew one's mind.
Does it really take a village to heal an anorexic? Well, it's helpful to have others around who care, of course, but really all it takes is God to heal an ED. I hope you don't mind my sharing my own story with you, it's here: http://redeemedfromthepit.blogspot.com/2009/06/my-testimony.html