One of Ana's worst fears~ A BIKINI!!!!!!

I just took these tonight. I have been struggling some with food intake merely because I am not hungry or am rarely ever hungry. Being sick for 2 weeks didn't help.

I can point to fat and flaws but I will refrain from glorifying ana.

I am aiming for a real bikini body. Part of me can't imagine adding weight to this then another part says "well I could use some more up top (lmao) and I can see ribs somewhat." So why not a few more pounds? Why not a little curvier?

Many people with Ed's often focus on flaws and any hint of anything other than pure bone!!!! For me, skin was fat. I hate the stomach area but with women we have a stomach. It's very normal and to try and get rid of that one area means extreme emaciation and possible death to get there.

I have worn a bikini in front of Mike and another couple we hang out with. This weekend we will be with a few more people in the jacuzzi. It's a bit challenging for me but having fun with drinks, good friends, and junk food (that this former ana girl will be bringing :-)), far outweighs any challenges ana may try to bring. In other words the bitch is out and I am in!

So I bare me. Plain and simple me. Enjoying fun times. Living life. Eating and drinking what I want. Wearing my bikini around others and not focusing on anything other than a good time!

I challenge you all to do the same~

((Hugs))

Brandee (fb Brande Gomer)