Thursday, February 10, 2011
Starting to just live again~
Just a few fun shots of my gorgeous boys and then I randomly added one of Cynthia Rowland Mcclure (R.I.P) and I from one of her Hope weeks in 1997. God I miss her.
It's been a very long and rough week this week. I drive a lot for my job and have plenty of time to think about things and have spent a lot of time this week thinking about my life at 34 and what the next several years will entail. I certainly don't want another miserable 20 years of "ana" up my ass. She has robbed me of so much and contributed to such aweful choices in men that now stress me near daily.
I am slowly learning to live for me and what is best for my boys and that means returning to school this year, starting on my book, diving further into deeper issues with my therapist, commiting to church, reaching out more, and learning to laugh at psycho boy and his antics. No longer can I live with my, MY MY MY, life on hold! I can't control those around me but can live my life and be fulfilled regardless and plan to. I really need to just start living~