Friday, February 4, 2011
As some may know there was a lot of negative feedback on my previous blog entry. Regardless of what some say as to my not listening etc, it couldn't be further from the truth. It is one thing to try and bring to light something you may feel is triggering or wrong in my blog to "help" me along in my own recovery but some of the comments were sarcastic and cruel and THAT I didn't listen to and let sink in because I felt it to be abusive.
With that said I have spoken at length to those who have given constructive criticism as well as my therapist and close friend Joyce. I have come to realize my blog has flaws in it and I apologize to those who may have been triggered along the way. If I have learned anything about "ana" it's that she creeps in when you least expect it. I did not see most of my photos as triggering at all which should and does scream illness! I am still learning and finding my footing. It also doesn't mean I don't try every day at recovery and continue to push through to a helthier me. I am quite aware I have to search deep within. I am quite aware it's not about weight etc but in a sense, to me, body image does need to be dealt with. The most important thing for my own recovery is being honest with myself and my therapist and that doesn't entail sharing deepest things here but enough to try and help others and show what it's like to go through the hell of anorexia and then the struggles through recovery which those in recovery know all too well what a long and bumpy road it is.
I do love photography but will post more appropriate ones that are fun to look at and not a drain on recovery. I will not be taking down previous blogs as I have put warning signs on those most severe and because this is all part of MY road and MY recovery which is one reason I allowed the comments that were so extreme to remain.
Again my apologies.